loneliness is a disease. 

And everyone in the world has felt this sickness. 

Being lonely… is not that the same as being alone. 

I, for one, love being alone. When I’m alone, I’m at peace. There’s nobody I have to talk to..try to impress or entertain.. It’s just quiet. Honestly, if I had tea and a good book (The Maze Runner) that would be a hell of a great day for me.  

Nobody can make this loneliness go away..at least not permanently. Maybe temporarily, you’ll feel a little better..feel safe or maybe sane— but in the end, you can’t escape loneliness. You can’t run away from what you are. You can’t hide forever. 

See, it’s kind of like a parasite. It feeds on you, grows in you. And eventually—it just becomes a part of you. Like a pair of invisible hands around your neck or a weight on your shoulders. 

Loneliness is natural.

I don’t feel like loneliness is a curse..I feel like it’s just there. It simply exists because the world is a sad yet hopeful place. Not society. I’m so sick of people blaming society. We’re all part of society so if we blame society we’re being hypocritical. Shit. Rambling. 

I have so many thoughts just swirling around in my head and I can’t let it out. I can’t write it out. I have so much .. Anger. I can’t just let it go. I don’t even know what I’m so angry about. I should be grateful but at the same time.. god I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’m not even depressed. 

I’m just feeling a bit philosophical .. and manic……….. 

like that’s any better lol.